I guess my biggest fear is that I’m not worthy of love. I’m confident and gorgeous, but as soon as another person is added into the equation I just feel so small and stupid.
I wish I could stop wandering the corners of my mind and I wish I didn’t act this way.
I hope one day someone tells you that there is a girl who still writes you love letters,
And chased you in the empty ends of cigarettes.
I wish you could take the pound of flesh I owe you from my body,
So that I didn’t have to think of you anymore.
There’s no man out there that wants to be with you as much as you want to be with yourself.
I wish someone was on my side.
"Imagine a room,
a sudden glow. Here is my hand, my heart,
my throat, my wrist. Here are the illuminated
cities at the center of me, and here is the center
of me, which is a lake, which is a well that we
can drink from, but I can’t go through with it.
I just don’t want to die anymore."
— Saying Your Names, Richard Siken (via chazkeats)
(Source: man-eatingcat, via tstandsfortrouble)
I like tumblr. Sometimes it’s nice to be reminded that we are all struggling. It makes me feel a little less lost or alone.
Will you all still be interested in my blog when I go skiing? I’ll still be writing and photo shooting and selfie-ing… But there will be lots of shots and videos of me doing stupid stuff on the slopes. I swear this will be the year I successfully do a backflip. Are you guys interested or should I make a separate blog?
Love is a promise placed deep inside your chest,
Love is coming home to the same old loneliness.
Anonymous asked: I'm so happy that coming out to your family went so well! I have been terrified about coming out to my parents so every time I see a success story it makes me feel a little more encouraged/over joyed that someone's life has just gotten better by being able to be more honest about themselves. You're amazing, give your dad a high five for me!
Aaaw shucks. I was very blessed to have open minded parents. They have their flaws to of course, but the way I was supported when I came out was beyond amazing. I wish everyone could have a coming out story as filled with love as mine. I am a lucky ugly duckling.
Even though I had been raised in a very open minded family, coming out is always a little scary. My father proved to me, on this day as well as many others, that he was an amazing parent and an amazing person.
Me: dad, I just wanted to let you know that I’m bisexual and have been for as long as I’ve been attracted to people.
Dad: that’s really interesting Ella. I wish I was bisexual too, I feel like I’ve missed on a very important experience by not falling in love with a man.
And that ladies and gentlemen, is a happily married straight man who has taken the time to wish he could be sexually attracted to and love someone of the same gender. That is amazing.
Your mental illness is not an excuse to deeply hurt someone.